Because Mother’s Day just isn’t hard enough. (heavy sarcasm)
I was taken by surprise while watching tv tonight. I realized I hadn’t eaten today so at a commercial break I started to go into the kitchen to fix myself something. Almost immediately became frozen to the spot where I stood. Adoption had yet to be mentioned outright but it was obvious where it was going.
I stood and watched as the man gave his wife a mothers day card as a way to inform her they’d been matched. And I began to cry. It isn’t 100% the commercial. Its been a hard day, as I said It is already 10 pm and I just now have eaten, so it didn’t take much to bring on the tears.
I should be used to it by now but all I can do is sit here and question. How many more of these can I take? How many more mothers days? How many more nieces and nephews? How many more baby showers?
I question constantly, but I never find any answers.
I’m jealous of almost everyone these days. The adoptive moms who get to create lists of reasons they’re happy to be moms through adoption. My sister who has a husband, a daughter, and a child on the way. My friends who seem to procreating like bunnies. My sons parents. And “normal” 25 year olds who don’t have crying fits as the month of May nears.
lhjh4 said,
April 21, 2009 @ 9:23 am
I did the same thing!!! Except there was a scream thrown in for good measure!
therapyisexpensive said,
April 21, 2009 @ 10:21 pm
I’ve been so focused on other things I honestly hadn’t thought about the upcoming “holiday”. I guess it had to be brought to my attention eventually.
lhjh4 said,
April 23, 2009 @ 9:50 am
Yeah, I was fine until my therapist called to set up an appt do help me with that day. Told her I was fine, until she called, then this commercial.